The only thing that keeps it part of your life is that you keep thinking about it. In NLP there is a beautiful way to questioning your thinking and get more insight into what is happening. It’s the Think-Feel-Do model. If there is a thought, there is also a feeling. And from there is behaviour.
The time is over that you have to get stuck in the negative spiral of thoughts and behaviour patterns. Are you aware of what keeps you in this loop? How powerful is it when you can start to give yourself feedback and advice that really works.